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How is it possible to have so much going on in my head, so much to say and not be able to get it out?

The upside of this situation is that I get to use the word Exanimate..which is what i’m feeling. What a word! I’d never read this word before LJ and I’m a fairly well-read person. (well I’ve read a lot of books at any rate)

Exanimate

\Ex*an”i*mate\, a. [L. exanimatus, p. p. of exanimare to deprive of life or spirit; ex out + anima air, breath, life, spirit.] 1. Lifeless; dead. [R.] “Carcasses exanimate.” –Spenser.

2. Destitute of animation; spiritless; disheartened. [R.] “Pale . . . wretch, exanimate by love.” –Thomson.

(i’m feeling the spiritless bit)

The only spark of joy lately is brought to me by Terry Pratchett and my lame little jokes that I share with grapewine

“This isn’t how I imagined it, chaps,” said War. “I haven’t been waiting for thousands of years just to fiddle around with bits of wire. It’s not what you’d call dramatic. Albrecht Duerer didn’t waste his time doing woodcuts of the Four Button-Pressers of the Apocalypse, I do know that.”

–(Good Omens)

Armageddon in the 21st Century..hahahaha!!!

And yes..before a certain friend of mine points it out..I’ll own up to it. Yes I know that “other Oscar Wilde stuff that I have loved wildly” is a really lame joke but I was in a good mood and I love lame jokes 🙂

Posted on: July 22, 2004

Am reading The Picture of Dorian Gray. Not very far through it but am already amazed. Have read other Oscar Wilde stuff that I have loved wildly but they were comedies. This one though…it’s different. Can’t say much about it until I finish but wanted to share these from the book:

“When I like people immensely I never tell their names to anyone. It is like surrendering a part of them.”

Someone once said something similar to me and at the time it really annoyed me but now I understand it. I get how keeping something a secret makes it more delicious, more exciting.

And this:
“I find a strange pleasure in saying things to him that I know I shall be sorry for having said.”
and
“Now and then, however, he is horribly thoughtless, and seems to take a real delight in giving me pain. Then I feel…that I have given away my whole soul to someone who treats it as if it were a flower to put in his coat, a bit of decoration to charm his vanity, an ornament for a summer’s day.”

Oooh angsty goodness! 🙂
Hasn’t everybody at some point felt something similar? or atleast known someone who’s been there…

Oh..and I’m just discovering how good Maroon 5 are..has anyone seen She will be loved? Both the song and the singer are beautiful…

And then there’s the magic of new music. An opportunity to add a soundtrack to new memories..
I love discovering a new song and enjoying it before it hits the charts and is played to death…
I heard Chocolate 2 weeks ago I think…and I liked it instantly. What made it better was that one of my best friends who’s on another continent (and who better get on LJ soon) also discovered it and liked it :)*clap clap*
So its like our song now isn’t it cupcake? And it suits us perfectly (in a non-lesbian way)!

Isn’t it amazing how music can take you to a different place in time…bring back really vivid memories, smells, emotions…all the good stuff…

and some bad too…I mean I couldnt listen to one particular George Michael cd for almost a year after a particularly bad break up coz the guy and I fell in lurve listening to that cd. Saying it now sounds ridiculous but I bet I’m not the only one who’s felt that way.

And then theres the good stuff.

I was in Bombay in Jan which I guess was winter for Bombay but it was HOT and HUMID. And I had a driving class with the windows rolled down because ofcourse..the AC didn’t work. And I was humming this song which I’d just heard that morning..and suddenly there was a cool breeze and it smelled like rain. And I flipped. That breeze and the song in my head..made me so happy for some reason. I had the goofiest grin on my face the rest of the day and kept humming that song.
I’m not from Bombay but I fell in love with Bombay listening to Aaj mausam bada beimaan hai..and it all came back to me today while watching Monsoon Wedding.
Sadly for those of you who dont know the song, there’s nothing I can do to help you.

Posted on: July 2, 2004

Geeks Rock!!
Love em!!

and Slim Shady!!!


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